I have zero self esteem because of this and I look at pretty girls and think why I wasn't born beautiful. My whole life she has told me I'm ugly and that she wished she had a beautiful child, I never had a dad around to tell me otherwise. She would tell me he left because he didn't want me.
I'd rather have a beautiful heart than a beautiful face. I’m really sorry you feel ugly but you have to realise everyone is beautiful in there own ways. Ignorant people won't look passed your face they are not worth your time. Intelligent people will see you for who you are . Your traits , , hobbies and opinions so focus on those aspects of life make sure you get good at them.
Asthetically “beautiful” people are in the minority, the majority of us are NOT beautiful. If you stop & think about it, just how many beauties do you actually know? You will probably come across not many, so if you fall into this category…. Welcome aboard from most of the human race.
You do not deserve to be treated this way. It makes me want to cry. It is horrifying to hear that she could say that to you - and tell you that about your dad. I’m sure it is not true. She sounds extremely abusive. If you could talk to a counselor at school and tell them everything, that would be a good idea.
Your mom is a big part of your life, but it is NOT your life. You are whatever you are and I am sure lots of people find you beautiful. Your mom needs therapy. Lots of therapy, because probably she believes you are the reason your dad left both of you (VERY doubtful). You can’t fix everything in the world, but move on. Find friends and family who love you, study, get a career, and get away from your poisonous mom.
99 % of the people are grumpy,sad, moody or experience even depressing thoughts on a permanent level. Why ?Because they have two self-destructive thoughts which circulate in infinte patterns :I am too … (fat, stupid, ugly …)I have to …Don’t mind other people’s business.If People telling bad stuff about me the only thing i do is giving them a tissue …What devastating life would it be spending your whole life trying to please everybody. It’s your Life.
As you get older you will understand that it does not take a beautiful face to be very attractive and appealing. That comes from self-confidence, the understanding that you are someone unique
Ok firstly half your looks come from her.Secondly my speculation is that she's unhappy with her life and blaming you instead of herself.Thirdly, if she can't do her job as a mother, why do you believe she's capable of correctly judging looks? Fourthly, I absolutely promise that being beautiful wouldn't make you long-term happy.